(1 Corinthians 1:9 NIV) God, who has called you into fellowship with his Son Jesus Christ our Lord, is faithful.




(2 Samuel 22:32-34 NIV) For who is God besides the LORD? And who is the Rock except our God? {33} It is God who arms me with strength and makes my way perfect. {34} He makes my feet like the feet of a deer; he enables me to stand on the heights.




John 10:27......He goes before them and the sheep follow Him for they know His voice

Change.

It's time for something to be different. I've tried a lot to get this study abroad thing off the ground and there's always a door shut in front of me. MAybe I need to acknowledge that as a stop sign instead of trying to push through adversity and jump over hurdles. But that's what my time at CU has been about. It hasn't come easily to me- the grades, the friends, the lifestyle, a general sense of well-being.... and I keep wondering if there's something wrong... somethingI can fix... but I don't think I can fix it.

So I have to options: push through it for the next two years. Or move.

There's not a lot of places I would go because many don't make logical sense (Seattle, Whitworth, NYU, Fargo, etc.). So I figure I'll just stay at CU. That's why study abroad looked like such a good option. It would be a moment of stillness in the midst of the storm, a time of quietness and shalom. And then, after a semester... maybe after a year :), I would go back and finish as best I could at CU. That would be me pushing through. I could do it. I would do it if He told me to. I would stay for as long as He wanted me there.

But what if all of this is coming up here and now for a reason? What if the change of heart happened this last month for a purpose- in preparation for a change? What if He's answering my prayers to move in my life? What if He wants to move my life?

If that's where the Lord is directing, I'm there. I'm so there. It would be a both a relief and a challenge to me- but I'm so down because I know He's walking with me and preparing a road before me- a path for me to walk in. And whether that path is smooth or rocky (for the last few years, it's been a rocky one), He's there- so I'M there.

I don't know the exact spot where You want me, Lord. I think I know... I think the idea You've presented is just about perfect... and I would like that...

YOU lead the way- I'm in.

Friends @ CU

It's kind of hard to find friends at college. I'm not a party girl, but I'm not a goodie-goodie either. I want to have fun but not be dangerous or anything. I'm not 21 so I can't go out with my friends, and even then, most of my friends don't go out... I don't know what group I fit into- and unfortunately, it's kind of one or the other this time. I'm sick of being alone like in the middle of both groups. I'm sick of being bored. I love my life but I need more people, more excitement, more memories... I think with some effort I can get there eventually.

I'm Going to Italy! (part 1)

I don't even know where to begin in describing what was going on in my heart the last week.

I've tried a few times to write down everything but it's a long story. Too long for my little blog page.

Basically, the choice came down to using my money for going on the missions trip to Belize for spring break, or going to Italy during the summer. I really felt God leading me to go to Belize even though Italy is what I truly wanted to do and what I should do, academically speaking. But then He opened a door for me to go to Italy for fall semester... on scholarship. So that means I can use my savings for Belize.

And now I get to do both... :)

Thank you Lord. I saw You working this week and I am so thankful. Thank you for directing me about next year, and speaking into my heart.

Once again, my life is just a testimony of His faithfulness. He does not leave us to figure things out on our own. He does not leave us to suffer. He does not leave us to our own strength. He does not leave us alone. He does not leave us. Ever.

Nothing is certain, but if we're walking with Him, we'll be walking in His perfect plan for our lives. It's not about worrying about His will and the plan and our direction; it's about making sure we're following Him, that we're pointing our lives in His direction- that's the best we can do and it's maybe all we're asked to do.

So, I get to apply to Italy now. *Big Smile*

Wow.

I am amazed by what the LORD did today. 

He stepped into my life in a powerful way, in a real way.